Today is one of the hardest Ive ever had to endure. It's been a year & some days since my heart was torn to shreds, but I can survive.

Not many know what I am talking about but many others know how I hav felt. The biggest obsticle is to learn how to endure it & survive but still retain the relationship they had before hand. So many things are going wrong in life right now for so many.

I look at the relationships floating around me & how much those people have hurt or have made hurt happen & I just do not understand what is wrong. You make a commitment you stick to it. you take a vow you follow through & thus I have. It has been hard but I have com through on top dispite the pain, dispite the tears. I love my husband & not one thing in this world will ever make that go away.

As I sit here & take my shot of Cuervo I know deep in my heart I can forgive any fault on my other half. People make mistakes. people are just animals & most live as such & we have to understand that. But it takes a real human being to accept the faults that he or she has made & make it right. & Those who have been hurt by this cause & effect need to learn to forgive, never forget but FORGIVE.

Seeing so many lives just fall apart over an act of pure LUST & not LOVE is just insane but you have to remember who those people are & how much you truely love them.

Life is only solved by true forgiveness & true repent! So if you are truely sorry for the acts of hurt you have cause REPENT & all should be forgiven,....if it isnt...then, those who should forgive but dont, will see their own faults in due time.

I am at a loss for more word so i bid thee a TTFN. & Hope the year of 2010 will be a little more surviving then the year we are about to leave behind.

Yeah its a tuesday night but tuesday is officially tequilla night.

For people that dont understand, even though its early in the week & not friday or saturday, ron & I need to unwind during the week too. We do so much all the time & never get a chance to have fun. So we did tonight & agreed we should do this once a week but not when people expect. We want to unwind differently. We never get hung over on the stuff so why not?

Needless to say we had a blast. I love it. I think we are finally at that good place & I enjoy every moment of it. Hailey was good today aswell, shes a good girl when she wants to be. But also the biggest p.i.t.a when she wants to be too. But like any good parents we love her no matter what. Mommy loves you baby girl, dont forget it!

So, Ron got a motorcycle. Its a 99 honda but looks like a Harley, blue with turqouise marble flames...& yes..its a 2 seater! Hailey seems to like it. She watched him riding it the entire time we followed him back in my car.

The only down side is we sold our 67 ford galaxie 500 in order to have extra money. The upside...the bike gets 50miles to the gallon! I can't wait for the first time we get to ride together...now all we need is a sitter...?

That's it for now. T.T.F.N!

So today was an ok day. Not much happened. Ron & I have not been getting the best sleep lately cause Hailey has been getting up at 3 or 3:30am every morning so far, im hoping we can sleep all night tonight cause we need it...that's about it. Haha. But yeah...just had to let it out. Yeeeeah...

So I've been spring cleaning for nearly a week. I mean top to bottem side to side. Scrubbing, wiping, folding, dusting...you name it Im cleaning it.



Hailey is now in a big girl bed & has been for nearly a month now. Shes finally going to bed the way she should but the first 2 weeks SUCKED. One night I ended up with severe allergies that felt like the flu, & since Ron has to get up every morning for work at 4:30am, I stayed up til almost 2am with Hailey...all while feeling like dying!



Im going to be looking for a job soon. But so far its not looking good. But we will see.



T.t.f.n!

Hailey is officially going to be a little big girl, she's getting a big girl bed. Im so excited. Its going to be here soon so tonight is her last night in her crib *sob*

Ok, so my back is killing me nothing new really. But whatever. I don't even remember the last time I blogged so ill update just a bit. I have my license now, Rons is going to be suspended, Hailey is talking A LOT! Crystal is preggerz with a little girl, & I am so wanting a baby. I don't even care if its another girl, I just want to have my 2 kids & im done but that's not going my way :( . Im hungry too...that sucks most right now I hate being hungry this late. Ok...im going to get my growing ass some food (yep..im packin on the pounds)

There's about 4 more days til Christmas & im so excited! I can't wait for Hailey to open her gifts & for Ron to open his. I finally had money to buy gifts this year so I was happy! We're going to my mom & dads for Christmas eve & to Rons parents for christmas day, but we're still doing the early morning thing here @ home.
I can't wait. I love Christmas...I really do, so many awesome memories of it. *sigh*

So a lot of stuff is going on, my sister just found out her 2nd baby is a girl. Ron got a blackberry pearl for xmas & got me a spiffy new sidekick slide which im using to edit this. Haven't been able to update for awhile cause we don't have internet on the computer so yay for this thing. Hailey is in the first stages of potty training, joy...but its exciting at the same time. Well I guess that's it for now. T.T.F.N